If you know anything about me, you probably know that I’m passionate about leading worship. I’ve learned and grown under some amazing people through the years and God has placed opportunities in my life to guide hearts through music. I’m so grateful.
But lately I’ve been thinking about all the dreams and longings that still seem unattainable.
Maybe it’s my stage in life, or some “well-meaning” comments from folks, but I find myself at God’s feet wrestling over laying these things down again and again.
This world tells us to fight for our dreams, to work hard to attain a goal no matter the cost, and to think about ourselves first.
But what if God’s view of how my life relates to worship is different than mine?
Like when I’m adding extra jelly to my son's sandwich for his lunch box and God whispers “This is Worship.”
Or when I’m scrubbing the yuck off of the toilets. Again. And God is so gracious to join me in that mundane moment and say, “Do this for my glory.”
Sometimes I’m alone—rarely, but it happens—in my minivan praying through tears with raw emotions and He says, “I see you and I’m with you.”
It’s a paradigm shift in my heart, and it’s countercultural to say the least, but if God desires deeper, private worship from a worship leader, then it must mean that the life I live off the stage is even more important than the life I live on the stage.
Let’s keep praying in the dark, and through confusion and heartache.
Let’s keep living life like the details of our hearts matter. Because they matter to God.
Let’s continue seeking Him and pouring over the Word of God to show us the next step.
Will you worship with me?
“And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.”
Colossians 3:17
